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| Hello everyone!!
Well it has been forever since my last post. This second semester of pharmacy school has been alot tougher than the first. We are nearing the end though, only 15 more days til school's out! This summer I get to spend alot of time with Tom because I will be working at Walgreens in Bryan. I am super excited just to not have to go to school. Let's see, what else is happening. Tom is graduating in less than two weeks, Cash is getting bigger and bigger, Tom is going to be working for a small company in College Station doing research. Life is going great. I have several weddings and family reunions to go to this summer, should be a blast. My schedule for next fall looks so much better. No more night exams and am not in class all day. Thank you to everyone out there who has prayed for me/thought about me this year. It has been rough but I have survived (well almost).
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| Well things are going along rather smoothly here. I have less than 3 weeks til Christmas break so am excited about that. School is definitely keeping me busy. Tom and I decided to get back together shortly after my last entry. I am very excited about that, and we are getting along even better than before. He got a bloodhound dog, Cash. He is growing bigger every day and is really cute. Right now I feel a little frustrated that this is only the end of the first semester of pharmacy school and I have so much left. It is like starting colllege all over again. Oh well, I knew what I was getting myself into. I think the break will do me alot of good. They keep saying that this first year is the hardest then it gets easier, I sure hope so. Well I have to get off to class, will try to write again later.
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| Things here are definitely starting to pick up. I am staying super busy with my nine crazy classes. Tomorrow I will be visiting my resident again at the assisted living facility I was assigned. For those of you that don't know, we as pharmacy students are able to participate in this program where we get to interact with an elderly patient for a year to better understand the population we are trying to serve. My resident is such a sweet lady and I really look forward to going. We have been having various professionals in pharmacy come to speak to one of our classes, and as they motivate us, I become super excited about my chosen profession. However, it still seems that alot of places I go people poke fun at the fact that I am going to school for four more years to learn how to count pills and put labels on them. That is not what a pharmacist does. Pharmacists are the most readily accessible health care provider and they are now participating more and more in the concept of pharmaceutical care. This refers to providing the best possible care for our patients. Pharmacists today go on medical rounds with doctors and provide drug info and dosage to them for their patients. Some pharmacists run specialty type clinics. Clinical pharmacy is changing, and I want to be an influential part of that change. Some pharmacists today do not even practice in a typical pharmacy setting, they are making large impacts using their knowledge. Pharmacy is changing and it is up to our generation to provide quality health care for an aging population. As for me, going through these different classes and outside the classroom learning experiences is shaping me not only as a young professional but also as a person. I will be a role model for my community, in fact I already am one for young girls everywhere that want to make a difference in science. Many people today do not have the opportunities that I have and I am truly grateful to be learning a profession such as pharmacy. I hope that every day, even now as a student, that I can impact somebody by my smile, my caring attitude, my laugh, my heart. There comes a point where you have to learn how to think about yourself and others in a different light. It's not all about you! It is so hard to learn, and I am in the process now of realizing that and trying to make a difference in my life and of those around me. | | |
| Well everyone, I am glad to tell you that I am doing better. I am meeting ppl here in Austin and having a good time. School is tough, that is for sure, but I have been realizing so many things about myself during this time. One big thing is my obsession with school. Those of you that know me know how I study all the time and feel guilty when I am not studying. Since coming here, I have not been as concerned. I know that the problem has not gone away, but I am working on it. I do something for myself every day, be it eating out with ppl, watching TV/movie, playing DDR, reading, writing, etc. I have realized that if I obsess about my work, I am not having time for the people and things that really matter: God, my friends, my family. At A&M this was a huge problem, and I took it out on Tom alot. I would be so stressed about studying and being perfect, getting every little thing done. Here I feel calmer in that regard at least. Another good thing I have been doing is not worrying about my weight. I used to weigh every day at A&M and tell Tom that I gained a pound or two today, he got really tired of that. I haven't weighed in like 2 weeks, and I still feel very good about myself. I realize that I have been spolied and selfish in the past, and I did not fully realize what I had in my relationship with Tom until it was gone. I dont want to live with regrets, just trying to make things better between us. I dont like the fact that I am no longer his girlfriend, but I cannot change that. I just have to be my nice, normal self and move on. Who knows what God has in store for me? I am really excited about my new profession of pharmacy. We have speakers talk about the profession and get to go out in the community alot. I also really like my new apartment here. The air conditioner does not currently work but I am not too bummed out. They will hopefully fix it tomorrow while I am at school.
I think the important thing is that I'm learning from my mistakes and moving forward. Just think, at some point in the next few years, I will be the boss, I will be showing technicians, clerks, possibly even other pharmacists what to do. Also, I will be responsible for providing quality care for my patients. I need to be a good example, have my head on straight, show them a deep compassion and caring, not a spoiled brat who gets upset when she doesn't get her way with every little thing. Coming to this realization is HUGE!. I will not be the one to complain when I do not get yellow peeps, I will not complain when my air conditioner goes out, I will not mope around when my boyfriend no longer wants to be with me. Things happen for a reason, and with each day comes new challenges. We have to do our best with what we have. I remember in my valedictory speech that I quoted the verse James 1:2. "Consider it pure joy when you have trials of many kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith develops perserverance." I have not been too joyful or happy with the events that have happened in the last couple months. Thus, I was miserable. It was not that Tom wanted me to be miserable, I was making him and everyone around me miserable. Now I vow to be a light in a dark world, to bring people a smile and make them feel better, not worse. I hope that my time at UT will be as fruitful as my time at A&M, but even more so. I want to take that step forward, not a step backward. I am really grateful to Norma for all she has done for me here since I moved. It has been hard, and she is a great friend. I want everyone out there who knows me and reads this to know that you will be seeing a new Alison in the future, one who is not so worried about herself, one who will keep smiling even when things don't go her way. Thanks for reading this those of you who made it this far. I want to leave you with a quote I heard from my mother, "If you look to the past, you have regrets. If you look around, you have worry. If you look up, you have hope."
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| Well everyone I am now in Austin attending pharmacy school at UT. It's what I always wanted, right? Well the problem is that I no longer have Tom by my side. He decided to end things between us. I have had feelings of depression, loneliness, anxiety, and I guess that is to be expected when you love someone as much as I loved him. Now I can't sleep at night here. I get so tired at night and go to bed early, but I cannot go to sleep. It sucks. School here seems like it will be hard. I am trying to meet new friends, but it is hard. Please everyone out there pray for me.
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